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Coming full circle

I’ve had the most emotional day today, and it’s only 3:00 in the afternoon.

First, we went to the funeral. It was held in a lovely, humble little church. I’ve always felt some affinity with this church, even though I’m not a church-goer. It’s a downtown church that reaches out to street people, and it […]

Haunting images

I’m thinking today about an Ottawa woman who died last weekend after a 20-year struggle with drugs. My heart goes out to her family, who never gave up hope until last weekend. I wish them peace.

Lens – the New York Times photojournalism blog – showcased Ottawa photographer Tony Fouhse’s crack user series on Wednesday. These […]

Duncan and Colonel Labbé: a tale of two nightmares

I love sleeping in a cuddly tangle with Duncan. He’s like a big teddy bear, only he purrs and he cuddles back. The only problem with sleeping with a 22 pound pussycat is that when he has a nightmare, he turns into a rigid, flailing octopus with razor-sharp claws. All he wants is to eject […]

The Meaning of Life (or mortality, part III)

I really set myself up yesterday, promising to reveal the meaning of life today. You know I was just kidding, right? I mean, I’ve got all kinds of gems of wisdom I can pull out of my ass on a moment’s notice, but the meaning of life is not one of them.

The thing I […]

Mortality, Part II

Although I’ve always lived with an uncomfortable awareness of my own mortality, my cancer diagnosis brought it careening into the foreground for awhile there. I’m feeling pretty good these days about my prospects for surviving, but in the early weeks I thought I was a goner.

One of my blog readers wrote to tell me […]

The vast grey void

I’ve always been a little too acutely aware of my own mortality. As a child, I pondered death quite often. Not dying so much, but death itself. The state of being dead. Forever.

It was the permanence of death that weighed so heavily on me.

I tried to bargain with a God I didn’t believe in. […]

Madness and Anger

A couple of weeks ago I mentioned that I’d heard anger was a common reaction to finding out one has cancer, but that I wasn’t angry. XUP emailed me and said she was angry for me. I keep thinking about that.

I never mentioned this here before, but I spent a few months in Ottawa’s […]

Warts, wars and the language of cancer

A while back I was checking out the career resources section at Chapters. I was startled by the number of books with aggressive titles. Good is Not Enough. Bullet-Proof Your Job. Knock ’em Dead. Power Talk: Using Language to Build Authority and Influence.

It struck me that the language of job-hunting is overtly masculine, which […]

I’m starting to wonder about the Ottawa Police

GC and I dropped into my local community centre on Thursday evening for Meet the Chief night.

But there was no sign of Police Chief Vern White.

“Where’s the Chief?” I asked my city councilor, Maria McRae, who organized the event.

She explained that the Chief couldn’t make it, but he’d sent his Inspector in his […]

Wanted: A more hopeful garden

I’ve blogged before about my front walkway garden and its invasive goutweed. In fact, it’s not a garden at all, it’s a goutweed patch with a piece of landscaping fabric over it in an effort to stifle the goutweed and keep it from taking over the world.

Last summer I felt embarrassed about what […]